27 October 2013

A change of heart

I came across this video today, by way of a good friend. Definitely needed it. Lately I have been so caught up in my own life that I haven't made time for others, including the Savior. I know inside that this is a time when I especially need Him. So I need to come unto Him and to start, I am making a couple little goals for myself.

Finish Personal Progress before December 15.
Read my scriptures, diligently, each day. Including the assigned reading for seminary.
And a less tangible goal...put my entire trust in the Lord. Come unto Him.

Moroni 10:32 tells me to "come unto Christ, and be perfected in him". Jesus was humble, obedient, kind, courageous, submissive, selfless, and full of love. He was a healer, teacher, and a servant. I NEED to exhibit these traits to the best of my ability. So here goes.

There are a lot of big things happening in my life right now...who am I kidding. There will always be big things happening in my life. However, right now I am making decisions that will affect my life for years, perhaps eternity, to come. I have been pretty selfish to this point, and spent a lot of time thinking Wo is me. My goal is to consciously think about the needs of other people before mine. I hope that will help me come unto Him in being selfless, kind, humble, and full of love.

I have so much more to say. My hope is that recording these thoughts will encourage me to do them, even though nobody reads this. It's out there for me.

Today I am changing, and I will not have to do it again. I will have faith in the Lord and come unto Him. Sometimes it is not seemingly convenient, but it is always worth it. Always. I know that, but it's different this time because now I am going to DO IT. I know it and I love it, but here and now: I live it.

25 August 2013

What a Day

First Fillmore Family Farewell. (Don't you love alliteration? It really makes things pop.) 

This is the end of an era. Max enters the MTC next week and our nuclear family will never, no never, all be together again in our home. But I know that we will always, yes always, be together in spirit and purpose. I am so thankful for the knowledge I have that my family is sealed together for eternity. I know that Max is going away for a short time so that other families can know this joy. The Lord is hastening his work, my friends, and I am so proud of Max for all that he has done to prepare himself to fulfill his duties. He has gone above and beyond and has such a positive impact on everyone he encounters.


On another note, my senior year of high school starts tomorrow.

Oddly enough, I don't feel very excited. I feel like a lot of things are coming to a close, actually. This was my last real summer. It was a productive one, yes. In fact, it reminds me of the saying, "No man on his deathbed ever said 'I wish I spent more time at the office'". I worked hard this summer. I have no regrets, but maybe a little longing for just one more week. To utterly spoil myself and complete every cliché bucket list item you could possibly think of. Oh well. Here's to growing up.

14 July 2013

Sunday Scripture

"And if men come unto me I will show unto them their weakness. I give unto men weakness that they may be humble; and my grace is sufficient for all men that humble themselves before me; for if they humble themselves before me, and have faith in me, then will I make weak things become strong unto them."

06 July 2013

On Top of the World

The boys and I hiked Mount Timpanogas, the second highest peak in the Wasatch Front. 15 miles round trip, we gained 4,500 feet in elevation, which is equivalent to climbing about 6,750 stairs. Taking into account my sore glutes, this is definitely a hike worth doing again.

The drive up the canyon alone was breathtaking. We hiked and hiked and hiked, a steady climb to the top. After an unnecessary shortcut that probably did more harm than good, we came to a basin, just beginning to bloom with thousands of wildflowers. One side was a retaining wall of sheer rock, another hillside of lupine and lush green, with patches of snow all around...As my dad described it, it was like standing in God's cupped palm. This landscaper know what He's doing.


We continued on, scrambling up rocks, like the billy goats we saw on the way. On the saddle, we looked out into the valley. It was a clear enough day that we could count six or seven temples while we were standing on that mountain, another house of the Lord. When we reached the peak, I felt on top of the world. After all the hard work it took to get there, I appreciated the view even more. It was impossible to soak in the expanse around me, and I marvel at all of the Lord's creations.


To quote my wise dad, "This hike is life in a day." It's easy to look at the dirt at your feet, and focus on the hurts. However, the best thing to do is find joy in the journey. There are new things to discover each step of the way, if you only take a moment to look up. I feel so blessed that I was able to experience Timpanogas this weekend. I feel blessed for my capable body, thankful for my family and the insights they offer, and wonder at the beauty that surrounds me!


PS. Can you find my brother?

30 June 2013

Sunday Scripture

"And now, Nena, remember, remember that it is upon the rock of our Redeemer, who is Christ, the Son of God, that you must build your foundation; that when the devil shall send forth his mighty winds, yea, his shafts in the whirlwind, yea, when all his hail and mighty storm shall beat upon you, it shall have no power over you to drag you down to the gulf of misery and endless wo, because of the rock upon which you are built, which is a sure foundation, a foundation whereon if men build they cannot fall."

24 June 2013

Priggity Prom

Thank you Spencer, for a weekend to remember. He spoiled me with a helicopter ride...Tuscany for dinner...a magical time at the dance...I'm so happy to call this boy my best friend!

29 April 2013

Max's Mission in Mexico

Mission: Mexico City South
Language: Spanish
Departure: September 4, 2013


Max received his official call to serve the Lord as a full-time missionary today, but it won't be much different from what he's already doing. He loves the work so much and is going to be an amazing force in Mexico. I'm so thankful for the example that he sets on a daily basis for me and everyone he encounters!


25 March 2013

Best Day

My ACT score came in the mail. Let me tell you, I felt good about that test, even while I was taking it. At this point I have every opportunity in the world available to me, and I am beyond grateful. I don't know what else to say, other than I am never taking that test again.

It has been my dream since the eighth grade to be senior class president and the journey has begun. I attended a meeting today and felt a little intimidated, but I am really excited about my prospects. No matter what happens, it will be a good experience! I know that whether I win or not, everything will work out the way it's supposed to.

Got asked to prom by my BF! For best friend of course. If there is a better way to top off a girl's day, I can't think of it. My mother dreamed about this happening, so it is literally a dream come true. 


Life is wonderful. Busy, crazy, stressful, beautiful, happy, wonderful. I feel so lucky to be living the way I do. I know that my family loves me and I love them. I am so grateful for the knowledge that I get to be with them for eternity. I am thankful for my close friends and all of the support they offer. And I cannot properly say in words how grateful I am to have the gospel in my life. I am blessed beyond measure and hope to be able to share that everyday.

03 February 2013

Sunday Scripture


"In God is my salvation and my glory: the rock of my strength, and my refuge, is in God."

02 February 2013

Cruisin'

For Christmas, the four big kids got a cruise to Ensenada, Mexico. The night before we left, I had Cafe Rio and I think my pork salad gave me food poisoning. Needless to say, I was not looking forward to the twelve hour car ride to L.A. Right before we left though, Max and my dad gave me a blessing and as soon as their hands came off my head, the nausea in my stomach disappeared. Just another reminder of how blessed I am to have worthy Priesthood holders in my family.

Well, I spent the car ride listening to conference talks and playing a smartie game. In order to play, you close your eyes and another person feeds you a smartie, taking note of the color. Then you have to guess what color it is and be the most accurate out of ten. Max and my dad claim that each color has its own flavor, but I have a hard time believing that. After a couple rounds, we resorted to two of the same color smarties so there was enough powder in your mouth to tell.

We stayed with the Bachelder's in L.A. Their family was so kind to let us crash at their place and the next morning we played tennis for a few hours and went to the beach. The best part of the entire trip was just being warm. It is a frozen wasteland here at home. 


Lara drove us to the port and off we went! The dinners on the ship each night were amazing. I played it pretty safe and didn't try anything new, but Grace surprised us all and ate shrimp, alligator, escargot, and sushi. It made me sick just to watch her. My weak stomach might be a problem if I end up serving a mission. Everything I ate was delicious though. Besides the fancy dinners every night, there were huge buffets for breakfast and lunch and 24 hour ice cream and pizza. The ice cream tasted just like a Wendy's frosty. There was a lot to keep us entertained on the ship. Some of our favorites were mini golf on the top deck, karaoke nights, the comedy club, and eating, eating, eating. Our cabins definitely weren't roomy, but I liked them a lot. My parents had one next to us and all four of us kids shared another. Here is a brief itinerary:

On Monday, we pretty much got on the ship, explored, and ate dinner. That evening, there was karaoke and my dad rocked it with "I Can't Get No Satisfaction". The room was dead but as soon as he got up, a bunch of elderly couples started dancing. They were good too! We went to bed exhausted. 

We arrived at Catalina Island on Tuesday and ferried into Avalon. We decided to go on a hike to the "summit" of the island. When we came back, we realized that our destination was actually a thousand feet below the real summit. Oh well. The views were amazing and it was a perfect day. We also got one dollar tacos at a little shop for lunch that were memorable and delicious. My mom and I walked a little farther and found a pretty nice beach, but by the time we got there, the sun was going down and the cruise ship was leaving soon. 


Tuesday was the formal night for dinner. We got all dressed up to dance and it was really fun! Our waiters knew us all by name and each night they performed magic tricks and skits for us.


We woke up in Ensenada, Mexico on Wednesday morning. A man named Pablo drove us pretty far away to the middle of nowhere, where we did a Canopy Tour. It consisted of five ziplines and five suspension bridges over deep ravines. Of course, we were harnessed in and I loved it. The longest zipline was a half-mile long. 


Once again, the weather was perfect. My dad thought Pablo was kidnapping us and the streets in Mexico were crazy. It was all very chaotic. Police with their sirens blaring drove by several times, but they just had to weave through traffic. Nobody stopped or pulled over the way they do here. We got back to the middle of things and shopped in the flea market for souvenirs. It was just like the swap meet in Hawaii. I loved shopping and bargaining, but the rest of my family couldn't wait to get out of there.


Thursday was the "Fun Day at Sea". I got to spend a lot of time with my mom on the deck and just relax, read, and write in my journal. The open ocean is beautiful. When we weren't moving, the weather was really nice, but otherwise it got too cold. My mom and I were wrapped up in towels as blankets while Jens, my dad, and Grace were crazy enough to go on the freezing water slide. I didn't envy them. All in all, it was just amazing to relax with the fam and get out of the inversion. 


The cruise was over much too soon. I wish we were able to spend more time on land, especially in Mexico, because I love new environments! We pulled back into port and began our trek home. The car ride was uneventful until we were in Fillmore, UT (incidentally). 

It was late at night and dense fog had settled over the freeway, so that it was impossible to see more than twenty feet in any direction. I felt worried for our safety, and so did the rest of my family. My mom suggested that we switch drivers and say a prayer together. My dad called on me; I felt prompted to pray that the fog would be lifted. I hesitated for a moment, because it felt like a big request, almost asking for a miracle. But, I did anyway and Max pulled back onto the road...We traveled for maybe ten seconds when suddenly the fog slid away. As we looked around us, it was covering every area but directly over the freeway. Our prayer was answered. This was the most direct answer to prayer that I have ever received, and I think the key was that we prayed TOGETHER.

“There is no more beautiful sight in all this world than to see a family praying together. There is real meaning behind the oft-quoted ‘The family that prays together stays together.’”
—President Thomas S. Monson

I am thankful for the Lord's hand in my life and this amazing experience with my family. I am so happy for the knowledge that we can stay together for all eternity, as we begin to go our separate ways in this life. I can't wait for college and a mission, but most of all, to have my own family to teach them the joys of the gospel. That is my mission.